Saturday, June 12, 2010

A few feelings

In my efforts to get this baby here I have done a bunch of cleaning, walking, gone to the zoo and shopping. I think things are happening though. My contractions are getting more painful and more frequent. I have lots more cramping and pains down there. I am trying to stay relaxed and enjoy these last moments before she arrives. Every move she makes causes me to think about what she looks like. I just want to touch her tiny toes and feel her brand new fresh skin. I want to feel her tiny little breaths and sounds. I can't wait to see her! I am so relieved that she made it full term and is healthy, well as far as the ultrasounds have shown. I feel so blessed to be a part of this birth and raising of a daughter of God. I am just in awe that I get to have 2 girls, kind of humbling that Heavenly Father is putting his trust in me to raise them right. I look at all the young women in our ward and think about what I need to teach for my girls to grow up as great as they are and pray that I can do it right. I am grateful right now to have the ward that we have. The sisters are so supportive, the brothern honor their priesthood. I love our primary program. The presidency is amazing with these little ones, Alexis loves them and primary. I am so blessed to have the gospel in my life, I can't imagine how these last 10.5 years would have been without my Savior carrying me through. I don't see how the rest of my life would be worth it without his love and blessings. I know that we still have valleys and mountains left, but he makes them managable. Right now it is really early, but I can see the sun coming up over the mountain and I know that I can do anything. Even give birth without pain medicine. We have received so much critisim over our choice to go natural, but we have honestly prayed and know that this is the right thing. My blessing tells me that angels will attend my deliveries and we know that the environment we have chosen will make it possible. I love my husband who is working long hours right now so that he can take a few days off when Megan comes. I get cranky with him at times for it, but that is just because I miss him. I am grateful he has the priesthood and blesses our home and lives with it. I wouldn't change a thing about our life right now, ok maybe I would give the dog a bath. So if this is the last post before our baby arrives and you don't see another one for awhile I want all of our friends and family that have been there with us through the thick and the thin to know that we couldn't have done it without you either. I know that you were sent to us to help and support and love us.

1 lil' notes:

Jenn said...

Thats the good thing about you being the parents. You do what YOU want and feel right! Not what others think is right. Everyone is different! :)